neorants

My two big thinking times are generally late night and early morning, when I’m not too bogged down in mundane daily details. You guys are familiar with the LNMD — now I introduce you to the EMMD. Click “more” if you really wanna read what’s on my mind.

As you’ll recall, I’ve sunken to new depths in my honeymoon funding efforts. Well, I logged into my Paypal account yesterday and I found out that someone actually made a $100.00 donation for NeoMail last Friday. Unexpected cash is always a good thing. $100.00 down, $3900.00 or so to go. It’s possible, I suppose. There are thousands of people out there making good money using NeoMail, and I only need 39 more donations like this one.

In the meantime, other attempts to gather funding are looking promising, with two little contract deals that are looking pretty likely to happen. The effort to find the extra money to pay for a honeymoon and other wedding expenses, pay off some debt, and generally just square things away so that we’re in good shape even if gooselady doesn’t find work by the time we’re married has been consuming nearly all of my thoughts, time, and energy. I don’t know if she knows how much it weighs on me, but I’m not making a point of telling her right now. That’s my burden to bear for now, and she has her own issues to deal with.

Of course, as a result of this stress I’ve been perhaps a little overly sensitive lately about lots of stuff. Some stuff that seems obviously related, like spending too much money when we go out, but other stuff that just doesn’t make sense. I hope I don’t stress her out too much. Deep talks (or just overly serious ones) seem to frazzle her nerves pretty quickly — she can talk for an hour easily, making chit-chat about her day, but give her 10 minutes of solid, serious conversation and she’s metaphorically darting her eyes around the room looking for an escape hatch. ;) Kinda frustrating for a guy like me who is all about the philosophical discussions and debating issues.